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flirtyNow Playing: Mindless Self Indulgence - "Masturbates"
Yep, just started this blog thing and I'm going to see how it's goes....
So today I was just chillin at my house then took a shower after i decided that i would go into media w/ sean... and i called danielle, accidently waking her up... so i didnt want to bug her anymore.. so i showered, got out, got dandy, finish up my chores, and left to meet sean. as expected, we were bored as shit cause we never really do anything fun when it's just us two, so we decided to go to sam's house cause it's warm....
i can't explain it, but for some reason i'm kind of into sam.. i have no idea.... i really can't see myself with anyone cause i'm just not like that.. idk at least to me i'm not... like i used to litterally be in love with this guy tyler... seriously... he's a good friend of mine and i swear i was in love with him and i've gone into like heartbreak everytime i found out that he got a new girlfriend since he moved... i try to play it off and be cool but sometimes i just cry cause it really does hurt... but i think since i havent seen him as much since he's moved, i think he's still REALLY hott but i dont know if i love him anymore cause i think i've just turned into an apathetic person really... i've been crushed too much... so idk i kind of wish things could go back to when i thought tyler might actually be into me, but i doubt that's going to happen... i'm not going to push it... if he chooses to then awesome but i doubt that's going to happen... w.e
so about sam.. i dont know.. he's pretty cute and a nice person. idk.... i feel bad for sean though cause he keeps saying im turning him gay and such cause when i met him i knew he liked me and it's kind of crazy sometimes but idk.... i think he'll find someone who'll appreciated him and he'll be really happy then..but sean can sometimes be pretty annoying and it scares me when he changes sometimes and pretty much annoys me a lot... like at the concert for MSI i swear he was attempting to act like tyler to try and get me to like him... maybe he was jealous? i have no idea...
haha i love it when tyler plays w/ my hair.. so cute and stuff.. idk i like it.. what girl wouldnt? but fuck he broke my heart too much
w.e
ok i'm done, sean's a callin' to talk and i've got a paper to write so maybe i'll write some more later...
adios amigos.
